Date : 4rth November 2026

Today 
I don't know whether i am a good person or not
But i always give my best possible in my relations

See
now there are 2 people who i love to be with
1)Deyyam
    Tanu prepare avutundhi
    She is soo busyyy,naaku ardhamavuthundhi,but naa manasuki teliyadu
    Naatho matladaniki time uvndadhu,kaani valla frds tho movies choostadhi
    Valltho chit chats pettukuntadhi,valltho yenni godavalu vachina ventanee kalisipoddhi
    naaku ardham kavatlee,whether she is literally want to talk to me or just using me as a toy 
    nen direct ga toy ananu kani she shares many secrets,she cries infront of me and all
    i i always wait whther it is her message whenever i get message
    i always wanted it is her message
    i dont know whther i am obessesd with her or i am just wanting some attention  

2)Pandi
    tanu intlo vuntadhi
    naa messages ki reply istadhi adhi antha ok
    but am i disturbing herr
    the day she cried
    tane annadhi nen neeku call chesemundhu chaala mandiki chesaaa
    i dont feel for it because i knew she is close with lot of members naatho kakunda 
    and i dont know what it issss
    and am i disturbing her or or nott 
    i dont knowwwww
    may be one day i will understand 


but deyyam vishayamm i always wanted it a very diffrent wayyy
i wanted to spend time with her
i wanted to talk to her long conversations ,i want to sit in class beside her and crack jokes,laugh for her jokes and many other moments 

literally telling 
i want to hug her and just tell her that i want youuu as much as you can givee
i dont want to name this relationship
she says you are my brother 
i feel her like a sister,i feel her like my bestest friend who i can talk anything,i see her like my soalmate aand 
she is diffrent in diffrent situations 

tanu aliginappudu nen tanalo maa amma ni choostaaa
maa nanna yela bujjagistaroo and how she reacts to things 
yentha patttudhalaga vuntadhoo
okapakka yedustadhi kani karigipodhuu
i dont know how exactly to describee

i dont knoww 

am i giving my self for wrong person
asala tanaki naatho vundali ani vundhaa ledaa
lekapothe migathavallakanta nenu tanaki importanant aaa kaada 
ilaa chaala doubtss 
i dont knowww

raastunappudu yedstaru aniii
but i ammmm

eerojee kaadu chaala rojulu nunchi vunna doubt idhiiii
can i get rid of that thingg
nen avalability ivvadam tagginchalaa vadda 
nen asala important yenaa yevarikainaa??
aa awnser nen kanukkovaliiiii